So, last week I passed the 2 month mark of being involuntarily unemployed. And it's not for lack of trying.
I've had 4 interviews, with 3 different employers, and later received the round of rejection letters from every. last. one. of them.
Ouch.
That stings.
And because we decided to keep Christopher in the daycare/preschool to 1.) keep his routine, 2.) keep his care, and 3.) make me available to take interviews, we are still paying a cost that was originally carried by my income. Only now I don't have that income, so despite all our debt paying down and budgeting....we have more expenses on one income with daycare than we did without daycare but with a car payment.
It's always something, it seems, that eats away at any semblance of our financial stability.
And then that instability adds to all my other insecurities {that I yell too much, do too little, put back the weight I lost, etc} and I have a big, fat, meanie of a voice in my head saying: YOU SUCK! All the time.
So, I'm trying to quiet that voice and replace it with a calmer, gentler soul that reminds me of the things that are True.
Remember:
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| Including other versions of yourself, both who you may have once been and/or who you wanted to be. |
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| I struggle with everything but the top one. |
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| YES!! This is soooooooo me. Er...WAS soooooooo me. I'm going to be here, I'm going to be here.... |
